I have had an incredibly stressful few weeks. We moved out of the South End on Saturday which was of course bittersweet. I was hoping for closure but what I got instead was incredible unsteadiness and confusion. Basically, the woman who is supposed to be taking over the lease has led me on a journey that can only be called, if I am being polite, a roller coaster ride which doesn’t seem to have an end. I am also, of course dealing with permits and building inspectors and am office-less for the foreseeable future.
Last night, Karen and I went to a holiday party put on by a wonderful woman-owned legal team called, New Leaf Legal. We were supposed to be networking but ended up drinking beer and chatting instead about all that is going on. (I won one of the door prizes which was a sparkling bacon Christmas tree ornament. Yes, I said bacon!) I woke up this morning feeling so much better than I have in weeks even though nothing concrete has changed. What I realized was that I am on the right path. Even though there are a million incredibly stressful things happening, nothing is telling me that I am going the wrong direction. In fact, everything in the universe is actually telling me that I am on the right path.
I opened my email this morning, and found a new one from Girlie Girl Army. I am going to let you check them out rather than say more. Intrigued? That said, the email started with a quote that almost knocked me off my chair. It totally sums up what I am feeling today.
“Why Dream? Life is a difficult assignment. We are fragile creatures, expected to function at high rates of speed, and asked to accomplish great and small things each day. These daily activities take enormous amounts of energy. Most things are out of our control. We are surrounded by danger, frustration, grief, and insanity as well as love, hope, ecstasy, and wonder. Being fully human is an exercise in humility, suffering, grace, and great humor. Things and people all around us die, get broken, or are lost. There is no safety or guarantees. The way to accomplish the assignment of truly living is to engage fully, richly, and deeply in the living of your dreams. We are made to dream and to live those dreams.” ― SARK
I know that my path is to live my dreams in fact, I am already living it. Does that mean that I am always feeling completely balanced and stable? Heck, no, but that is all part of the work. I will end with another of my favorite quotes:
“This path doesn’t always hug the ridge tops; it often falls into deep canyons, sometimes moves along the waterways, across the valleys, deserts, and the tall peaks of your inner self. It’s direction may not always seem clear as you venture into the wilderness within.” -Charles Breaux
Sweet dreams, Mimi