I recently made a commitment to try to stop worrying. I know that sounds strange but it actually worked for a while, and continues to when I remind myself. What I really said to myself was, “just try to stop worrying and see what happens. ” Now, I come from a long line of worriers, it is in my blood. Just like I thought that it was normal for checkbooks to be in the negative, I thought, that I just had to worry. I mean, it was almost a superstition for me. If I didn’t worry, then something really bad would happen. Crazy right? I am writing this as if it is in the past tense, I wish. I am at least becoming more aware of it and awareness is key.
So, with this in mind, I began to wonder about other behaviors like talking and thinking negatively. I wonder whether that stuff accumulates and overloads our energetic body like samskara. Samskara is baggage, old habits, behaviors that no longer benefit but we keep going with because we think that is the only way to be. Negative talk and thought must accumulate somewhere. I wonder if is possible to stop cold turkey, or cold tofu, or whatever. I am not suggesting being all Pollyanna. I am simply suggesting to myself to direct my energy towards the positive. I have no idea how and whether this will play out but I am going to try. I am worried that this won’t work, Doh!
